Another Year

A wise man once said "as another year ends another year begins". 

2009 was an amazing year in which I have managed to quit smoking and have grown my own music and writing. I am hugely proud of what I have been able to achieve personally and professionally. I have continued to learn and push myself in new directions. 

Will 2010 be full of new discoveries or more of the same? I know what 2010 will not contain - anything I have already experienced. It may sound a little odd but this year I have can count the number of guitar covers I have learnt on both hands. Not being in a cover band has meant I have pushed my own song writing forward more so than in previous years. I have concluded that it is very difficult to find your own style when you are trying to emulate that of others. It seems obvious now.

I also have a deeper understanding of what motivates me and I realise that only I am answerable for my accomplishments.


Because I have had a good year in 2009 the bar is already much higher, which can only mean that 2010 will be a better year as it is not in my nature to stand still. I have huge ambition and am looking forward to the challenges that I will face.

All of the people.

I have already shared some views on common ground. The people you have in your circle of friends say a lot about you. As do the activities you partake in. For example I do not collect stamps because it doesn't interest me. And I don't hang with people I don't want to. However there are times, most notably in the workplace, but also socially when you interact with people who you wouldn't necessarily interact with.
I am a very driven person and I have a will to succeed in whatever it is I am doing. It doesn't matter if its a video game, sports or professionally, because within me there's a will to get better; to improve. I don't want to be better than anybody else. I just want to be better than I was yesterday.Why do I have a will to succeed? I'm not entirely sure, but a large factor is because I love the feeling of progression. I love the feeling I get when I pull off something for the first time. It might be a new lick, a new chord progression  or I might of pulled off a killer set of combos on a video game. It doesn't matter how I get the feeling but the more I get it the more the bar is raised.
Personal progression is one of my biggest drivers. Inevitability it may mean I become better at a something than other people; understanding this whilst others do not was a key step in my personal development.
I have a few abilities that other people I know do not have. I have a good retention of new skills because I self-taught the concept that it is far easier to retain something you can visualise yourself doing. I also understand the importance of practice, practice, practice.

Some people don't see the behind the scenes effort that goes into learning new skills. They don't even consider the effort I may put into acquiring an ability. As a result perhaps they may aim frustrations in their life at me because I appear to them to be able to easily achieve what they desire. At times they may even think I am gifted opportunities. I can assure you I am not, if I'm presented with an opportunity it is because I will give it my all and will learn from it. Even if something doesn't go to plan, as long as you learn from it it is very valuable.
I know that you cannot please all of the people all of the time. Making that realization, and learning to desensitize myself from the feelings of others when I am being true to myself is a trial I still struggle with but hopefully get right more often than I get wrong.